Up until this past year, acne took a large toll on my self-image, as well as my confidence and my ability to be myself. The little red bumps and blemishes on my rarely clear skin were so noticeable and bothersome to me. They made me hate my skin. Throughout the past years, it seems as if I’ve tried almost every cream, wash, or medicine to try and make my acne go away. This cycle of failed efforts to get rid of my biggest insecurity was insanely frustrating and despairing. I felt helpless as I believed I would never be able to feel secure in myself again. 

That was until four months ago when my dermatologist recommended that I begin taking systemic isotretinoin. Known as the drug Accutane, Systemic isotretinoin remains the most effective treatment for acne, treating over 12 million people worldwide. Made of a synthetic molecule derived from Vitamin A, the drug prevents pimples by shrinking the oil glands in your skin, essentially halting your body’s production of oil. According to a study done by the American Osteopathic College of Dermatology, 74 percent of patients reported a positive experience, stating that their skin had vastly cleared throughout treatment. 

My family was initially skeptical of Accutane due to what seemed like extreme side effects such as hair loss, depression, suicidal thoughts, and blurred vision. Yet, my parents and I ultimately decided it would be the best option as my dermatologist assuaged our fears. Starting on a low dose for the first two months, I immediately saw a change. The red discoloration on my skin began to fade and the little white bumps completely disappeared. My face also started to look more glowy rather than greasy or oily, as my body’s production of oil began to decline. I was genuinely shocked at the rate my skin was clearing. As I began taking larger doses, I experienced some of the common side effects such as dryness and chapped lips; however, I have not yet experienced any of the more extreme side effects such as hair thinning or depression.

My skin has completely transformed as I am in my fourth month of treatment. Other than occasional minute breakouts, my skin has completely cleared. I truly feel so much better about myself and am generally a happier person now. Accutane has not only benefited my skin. Due to it stopping my production of body oil, my hair does not get greasy or oily. “People say their hair gets less oily, and they have to wash it less,” Dermatologist Dr. Nager states. “That’s likely related to the decrease in sebum production on the scalp.”  

I can confidently say that going on Accutane is one of the best things you can do for yourself if acne takes a large toll on your self-esteem. My skin has truly never looked this vibrant and healthy, and I finally feel like I can be myself again.